Decision made

Finally, the decision has been made. It was difficult. The situation was certainly one of the most unpleasant i've ever encountered. The past month was mind boggling with thoughts of what ifs running all day long.

The ability to predict and forecast what the future holds, gives one comfort and assurance. However, circumstances hardly unfold according to our forecasts. The risk was huge. Almost no historical point of reference. I was uncertain about the decision. The first round made me uneasy. The day dragged by.

Mustered the courage and made the second round of decision. This time, i feel much better- at ease. Ready to embark a new journey of uncertain waters. Probably wouldn't be easy. But i'm certain to make it work out right...very much in my favour.

pitter patter..
and i ran in the rain. contemplated on the run, but the sluggish discomfort was getting to me. the usual running route was exceptionally peaceful today. the light rain in the face felt nice..seemed like sprays off water from the sprinklers in the gardens. the run without joey felt a lil different. the last run was full of chatter, this time round was just me, myself and yvonne. i enjoyed it. recalled how the marina park used to be when 3 of us ran together. 2 years passed and the singapore flyer's up. the grandstand for national parade piled up quickly like lego. fascinating.

indeed the waterfront has developed rapidly. too fast for my liking. the once lush green marina south is now plastered with cranes piling the foundation for the upcoming casino and financial hub. honestly i hate it. yet, somehw, i have to accept it..the country's gdp is bound to leap.

took on a slightly different route back. ran across the bridge that links esplanade to fullerton. i wanted an evening view of the waterfront..on a chilly drizzly evening.

back to the gym. loads of rats like me. i have come to realise that my workout regime sux. haha. now for a more svelte figure.

The last session of classroom teaching is finally over. 2 weeks more to the exams before i get my break. Managed to steal some time after class yesterday for a movie. Caught the local production - The Leap years. Was a lovely production. simple and heartwarming. maybe there is that special "dreamy, bluey" person out there afterall for everyone's pursuit...

queried if history should just be stored or deleted. ans: delete

reply: ok maybe i will

everything's on a clean slate. now.. to work on the new year resolutions. have to get them sorted out once more. re-prioritise. the list has to be more lean. item1 is out.

the wheeze seemed to have subsided. maybe its time to start working out a lil. and i've yet to attain being a pescatarian. arghh

the whatever tendency..
gets more frequent. better not get easier

History..

Great subject indeed. depicts the occurance of events..records details for future reference, gives insights to lessons learnt. allows one to walk back in time, to experience and embrace during earlier times. but does it matter if history was ever preserved?

maybe...maybe not....

strike back..

the once forgotten & dreaded attack is back.. 10 yrs back, the dr said that i might be facing mild symptoms of the wheeze. medication was prescribed..taken and forsaken within a matter of days. the side effects were bad.. the wheeze went away.. and visited almost once a year..almost always a surprise visit. no exception for this time round.. arghh.. the 2nd dr mentioned stress as a cause... medication was an inhalent.. discus look-a-like toy.. purplish cover. "take a puff" when u feel the discomfort. puffed once, twice..and forsaken..

maybe its due to the lack of exercise..am nt too sure. or the incessant thoughts of impending exams. not quite sure.

maybe i do have mild asthma afterall..

The bday week..
Have much to update for the past week..but the burnt wkend totally drained me of all the energy.. the school work is indeed getting to me.. very worried abt the next term with corporate finance & equity lumped together..

yep the bday celebration started off with partying at barfly with the usual gang. it was a nite of absolute fun.. am glad everyone enjoyed that. managed to catch up with ivan on saturday after class.. i was seriously drained.. he could tell that i was dozing off whilst waiting for the pizza and calamari at modestos. sorry abt that pal.. pls pardon me if i lost u at times.. had sleepless nites for the past week. the wkend at class was horrid... tried to keep up and all..but just kept feeling fatigued. feels like i'm falling ill..

popped the panadol today at work as well..dun quite fancy the idea of taking it..guess i just had to to kill the pain. the temples were really constricted. the project mate called a few times to discuss abt our delta hedged portfolio..and consulted capsicum owner abt it. i was charged 10 bux per min.. haha!

Post work drinks at molly's was nice..cosy and relaxed.. quite like the place in fact. much much better than harry's with all the guai-los ard....argghh..

Was kinda tired by the time i hit the subway..semi dozed off whilst commuting.

Sudden pang of depression just hit..not sure why and how.. had to fill the tummy with some food before heading back.
grab a quick bite at the nearby food court..and jostled home...

berry seemed like the best companion.. berried celine..so glad that i could talk to her.. the school work...and planning abt stuffs for future and all just came full blast..

just wish for a quiet evening with the girls tomorrow..

Partie Pics!!
Finally got the comp working..!! phew.. i can finally upload my pics. Those of you who dropped by for our (Amy and I) party at barfly, have a glance at the pics!!






Okie its taking a long time to upload this...go check more on the facebook!

Sigh.... the assignments and exams are hitting me once more...

Partie Partie Partie..~!

Happy Birthday Amy! Had a joint bday celebration with amies at Barfly last evening. One of greatest night out for a long long time. The whole gang was there to grace our special day together.. such a privilege to see so many turn up on a friday night. Apologies to boon yam, urai , chris, jas and those who left early.... i'm guilty for being there later than i should. We will definitely have dinner together soon ya?

the nite started slow with martinis...simple stuff... and of cos with the crowd coming in.... the guys definitely wanted me and amy sloshed. haha! joey and aug suggested shots.....that was it... well it started off rather light.. 18 shots of kamikaze..NO, amy and myself din down the 18 ourselves. HAHAH... one each for everyone...ok..well we had to do 2 in the end. So kamikaze was still safe.... as the night went on..more martinis...and photo snapping. probably the only group that created a hell load of brambles haha! Good Job guys!

Round 2 of shots came along... same stuff.. 2 each... (4 down...and counting)... the 2 sweeties , jemie and geraldine came along.. :) more martinis...

by 11ish....everyone was somewhat tipsy..jason suggested round 3 of shots.. and yea we did it again.. arghh.. 2 each of "blow job" pretty yummy stuff ..kahlua with whip cream.. that was not the end.. the waiter dished out the "waterfall" apparatus...*gulp* that was it....

a nite of good fun and copious amts of alcohol.. thanks guys for making the evening a fun one for me and amy!

glad that the damage to the pockets werent that big...hahahha

Taking art to a different realm??

i need to think about what i like...flowers..butterflies....or some random odd design....

the gf is keen on it as well....hmm nw i'm really toying with the idea..

Binge binge binge...

Ah yes..totally killed the diet plan with the wkend long of cny. doesnt help with the coffee table packed with heaps of sinful cookies...arghh..

the fingers kept crawling to them. wish i could just put them all away. the cny vice...

now to work off the excess calories...pineapple tarts..walnut cookies..kueh lapis..argghh butter ladened!!

i'm gonna hit the gym later.. i still have a "zero room for growth" dress to fit..

Lunar New Year Eve..

10 mins more...before the reunion dinner starts. Dinner's slightly different this year.. we're dining in instead of hitting the resto. The granny's not too mobile..guess old age is catching up with her.

finally managed to the pair of heels for the new dress. call me old fashion..but still do believe in having a nice new outfit for the brand new year.

Cny countdown??...
2 days and the cny eve arrives..somehow lost that buzz i had in previous years. probably due to a change in work environment..existing place doesn't seem too "hyped up" about the occasion..

Caught Sweeny Todd today at cathay, with tix at an unbelievable 6 bucks?! Almost forgot the days where movie tix were 6 bux..man i miss those days.. rather nice show..but a tad bit of gor... the musical-like setting gives it a slightly different twist as compared to previous tim burton-johnny depp tie ups..

Pinched a bite of mum's fruit cake..think its still too "raw" to be eaten.. freshly baked fruit cakes need some time to "mature"..

Got a lil shocked when capsicum was dished instead..

Seriously need to be kept in shape.. the satin dress awaits its debut

To each his own...
Am convinced that i'm no trader material.. gave a way off level on my bet today.. think its time to stop making the bets.. time to consolidated the wins and losses... wanton noodles, chic rice, dark choc ice cream... blah blah..

The much awaited assignment is here..finally.. alright i'm sicko to be looking fwd to it. Not exactly to be frank. just want to finish it asap and rid it out of the way. i forsee more nerve wrecking tasks for the next module making its way here... bless me.
5 questions and i'm done with 2. Let me find some time over lunch to type up qn 3. Doesnt seem that difficult..the concepts just have to be "internalised" - quoting the lecturer..

not too sure if i'm out of mind to toy with the idea of doing the cfa.. attempted the lvl one the year before (dec); slaughtered big time. interestingly, it was ethics that fared the worst. hmmm...maybe am not as ethical as what i thought myself to be.

anyhow...time to hit the zzzz button. another thurs before the lunar new year comes along. somehow...someway...i dun feel the festive mood as much. probably the lack of lao yu sheng sessions with the team and frens.

Back to school...
Lessons finally resumed on friday evening. Was actually looking fwd to the intensive sessions...ok maybe i'm odd or nuts. hah! Haven gotten down to this ramble space for a while.. 3 wks maybe? Some mates have indicated that.. guess i was trying hard..very hard to read the texts and din want to get online too frequent. Seeing the flickering screen for a good 15 hours a day is bad!

Alright, summary of some highlights of the past few weeks..Nothing all that great happened..a nice quiet start to the brand new year. Ok i guess i have to sprout it out..did a fair bit of shopping thus far..3 dresses.. the latest to the collection was a satin dark blue pencil tube dress. the elegance and pristine cut just had me swipe the card.....arghh... sometimes i wish i din have "free time" before meet up with the girls.. alright excuses excuses..

Cny is just about the corner...2 weeks more...thereabouts..the empress (aka mummy) baked heaps of sinful, artery clogging pineapple tarts. used to think they were quite hard to bake...but with time... i've come to realised that they originate from the same basic cookie recipe?!?! add pistachios and u get pistachio cookies...throw in the walnuts and almonds and u'll reap variants of them. yes they are culprits of cellulite and love handles... but dun we just love the golden brown nibbles melt in our mouths? i know i am a sucker for them.. am glad the gymming regime is up and running for me...phew.. ok to eat more...i better work out more. and it doesnt help with the empress baking fruit cake next week...i love the rum soaked raisins....yum....

Wound down weekend....

The kickstart to the fantastic weekend was dinner at prive with the girls. Joe, amy, noi, grace and alicia. Joe's maiden trip to shanghai this time. The chatter throughout the night kept us busy..am so glad we had that lil corner room to ourselves. the boisterous laughter and random shrieks might have created quite a scene at the plc. haha! i love those ladies. Albeit the somewhat claustrophobic feel of the resto, we had fun. Noi had to adjourn to another party whilst we hung about at gastrobar sipping our juices! Yes no alcohol for the evening. :)

Saturday was babysitting day for us. Loyce brought her princess to meet the 3 aunts - joe, amy and myself. The princess herself is such a gem. Resembles her dad quite a bit. Quite a bit of fun for us cradling the little one. Rather interesting sharing session of motherhood from the mummy herself.. Looking fwd to the day where she starts her tiny steps!

The sunday plan was to jog. However daddy had something on in the morning...so it got called off. Hj and i caught up for brunch at mimolette. Lovely place off fairway drive. The interiors of the dining room was white washed. The chandeliers gave a cosy yet classy touch. Hj's benedict eggs were yummy. The farmer's brkfast set i had was equally good. Probably sink my teeth into the wagyu mini burgers the next time round. hee...

Had to make up to daddy for his way delayed xmas pressie.. popped by isetan and bought him a nice polo tee and berms from ashworth. somehw the ashworth polo tees are much better than the ralph lauren ones i got him previously... well material wise.. guess its the additional premium one pays for the horse embroidery on the lhs of the chest.

i love wkends...

Welcome 2008

Alright guilt guilt guilt. have not been doing up this place for the longest time. ok the biggest excuse for nt updating would be a hectic schedule. fine a lil of bullshit..maybe partially is true. was trying to catch up with all the mates before the new year starts. distributing all the cookies , brownies and cupcakes i baked for xmas season. did nt get to flicker much with the camera cos the fingers were all covered with butter, sugar and what nots of baking. haha! yeps heap loads of butter!! so all of u out there who had a bite or two of them...heheheh...pls make sure u work out loads!! *grin* alright i was joking.. i really did try my best to reduce the fat and sugar for the sweet treats. those of you who managed the muffins...pls be assured that only the best virgin olive oil was used to baked them. :)

Now for 2008....the usher in of new year was at the aunt's place. nice quiet countdown with the relatives and cousins. Couldn't believe that we all huddled up in dorcia's room for japanese animae and caramel corn snacks and some arnott's shapes bites. To buzz the count down a lil, i lugged a bottle of sparkling rose for everyone to clink the glasses whilst shouting....10...9....8.........2...1....Happy new year!! Reckoned that they are not really into champagne, the rose should do fine.

New year's day was really nice and slow. Decided to hit the beach with melzone. Been so long since we met..glad tht he is doing well and all :) Joe and alicia were at del mar too..slow day of chit chat and catch up is a brilliant way to start the year.

So much for fun fun n fun.......the harsh reality of school hits once more when i collected the books on thurs...*gulp* its back to school.... gonna psyche myself up a little.

Decided to take away the curls...after 2 years of wavy/curly hair...its time for a change. wanted to have the locks snipped..deliberately changed the salon to ensure that i dun get a bias opinion from the stylist. alas..the stylist at The Hair Shop cajoled "no cut" as well..i guess might as well just leave them..and just straighten the hair for a change.

End result...fantastic. Felt refreshed. Looking fwd to a brand new year. I'm excited.

Week-full of activities
Indeed, the week ended well, very well. The company trip to bintan was fantastic. Spent some good time with evan, the girl talk and lazing by the beach under the brolly, sipping our cocktails, with ipods plugged on....total bliss. The cocktail party at the bar was the main highlight for the trip. Lil tots with their wrists adorned with fluroscent light stick bangles, whilst the adults had a pretty blinking star hung down the neck. Lucky draws, christmas carols and photo taking made the hr and half fly past real quick.

Drinks drinks and more drinks...alcohol rather. the bosses drank non stop..the guys had a swimming competition in the pool. Alicia and myself became victims...had to go for 2 laps of swim in my sundress!?! gosh...

the uniform dress up party was great FUN! thanks much evan babe!

Run run run.....
Did the stanchart marathon this year without training. it was as good as courting my own death. and needless to say...it certainly did. the run brought back rather interesting memories and a brand new experience ths year. my first time running as a non participant. the route was pretty much the same as the previous years..yea...during my more fit days. haven ran anything beyond 10km this year.....today's attempt is very much the first for the year.

was rather reluctant on the run initially...but after some thoughts...decided to end the year with a finale..quite cliche..but true. a rather physical and mental enduring activity. there were throngs of participants for the race. quite interesting to know how singaporeans take time off on a sunday morning for this activity.

kinda strange...but the excitement and adrenalin which i had in previous years seem to have dwindled this year. the race was not exactly inspiring..somehw..i think i would have preferred a triathlon to a marathon now. running the 42km seems a little mundane. weather today was nt at all kind. the scorching heat started at about 9ish...yet another experience which i've not gotten for a while. running in the early mornings and evenings is so much more enjoyable.

post run lunch was banana, papaya and some cakes from da paolo gastronomia...yum......

another excuse to indulge in desserts since a decent bit of calories was burnt at the run. hehz..