Day 6, He visited once more...

Never really believe such a phenomena exists. Now i do. Its the second encounter now. Wasn't a feeling of discomfort. Perhaps a feeling of intangibility. Wish that he could drop a msg or two...

The heart still feels very heavy. the several events have yet sunk in fully. really wish that time flies past faster...then again, it takes a while to heal.

Memories of You...

What used to be a daily routine has now become memories. it hurts badly. the week passed in a whirlwind. the series of events occurred without any possible pre-empt. just one after another, bulls-eye in my face. reaction time was short, decisions had to be made for the next occurrence. even as of it is now..i can't make any headway of how i feel inside. perhaps no words or sentences can ever describe this.

there's so much to tell how i feel.. just wish that the letter reached you. My first and last letter to you. Always missing and loving you.

Appreciate all the calls...and texts...

It feels like 4 years back...

the pain, helplessness and anxiety. its not fair. why does it have to turn out this way. its horrid to make us all go thru this once more. its not fair to mum especially.

i watched her from afar in the wee hours of the morning. the rotating lights seem somewhat familiar to some. not the best item to be associated with. many cringe at the thought of it. yet she has to experience it. the pain was just a torture.

the drive with mich was somewhat silent, just punctuated with moments of sniffles. rational. we had to be. we knew the wrenching feeling within. yet there was unsaid..agreed consensus.

the day passed slowly.. just had to wait for the knock off time. every other hour was just the beep on the cell phone for updates. i knew she couldnt say much. i just wanted to be strong for her.

alas, the moment of truth. i wasnt able to keep it in any longer. fled off in the cab... i shdn't have stayed in the office for that long...

all else is history.and now, what's ahead feels very intangible.

Another post rain run...

Finally caught up with joey for our run..it must have been ages. chatted abt her dive trip, gp's gf, ner's hubby, hana's bf..she was raving abt hw the couples looked so cute together. not forgetting our previous running buddy- loycie.. =) little claire must be close to one year old by now. yep now joey's grounded. hehe..literally.. so long to her jet setting life!

weather was perfect..but somewhat on the contrary in the room of PCs (aka office)

The graffiti was found...buried under more graffiti.. argghhhh shd have used a thicker pen.

Number 9......

Was very enjoyable. Had great insights on portfolio mgmt.. finally the tracking error, alphas and what nots are all falling in place. Today's run was therapeutic. Weather was fantastic. The clouds were lovely... wished i had my cammie along to snap a few pics. Ok shall try to find some time next weekend to drop by the park for some shots.

The teacher suggested higher level studies... i wonder if this shd be considered seriously.. hmmz.....

The jog took me past the same spot...

Was searching for it whilst on the way back..hmm am sure its still somewhere firmly engraved or doodled. Too much graffiti.
Then again..the 2 short phrases were graffiti too? cute graffiti perhaps.

Some thoughts hit me once more..when back to the very same spot- Esplanade- Theatres by the bay......

Post work run..

Yesterday was griping abt how the pukey feeling destroyed every single meal. Am glad all of that subsided today. The greek salad stayed in. Phew. Weather aint too great in the late arvo. Maybe it was fated for me to clock that somewhat 10km run. Interestingly, there wasnt much pain.

Maybe i should start on the races once more. Maybe...

A very interesting fact hit the wound once more. Perhaps.... it was a wrong decision made? Then again...there's no turning back.

Queesy...

I hate the feeling. almost wasted lunch after i got back to desk. the nicoise salad was that close to being regurgitated out. yucks..
feverish sensation was next. to think i wanted to slip out for a run tmr.. lets hope i can do so..

i hate this state of mind..simply irritating.

Diet. I need a better diet regime.

The globalised city becomes more apparent..

the saturday day out to the gym setup loads of thought bubbles in the grey matter. it was meant to be somewhat a day of relaxation without much deep thinking. guess its just me. always on a look out, making inferences et al. just abt 2 mths back, spoke to some mates on how home is lacking in service staff. well obviously not an unknown fact- highly controversial in the papers am sure. indeed, a walk about novena sq after the workout session proved this fact once again.

Pit stop 1- I was hungry and thirsty, popped by the local franchise soya bean stall - Mr bean. Was greeted by a nice lady who spoke english with a slight chinese accent.

Pit stop 2 - To the supermarket for some takeaway sushi. At the cashier, the same experience as that in Pit stop 1.

Pit stop 3 - Accessory store for some hairclips. Pls refer to 1 & 2.

Pit stop 4 - Back home at the TPY interchange. More of 1, 2 and 3...

Globalisation cannot be prevented...the effects are apparent. Witnessed them. I'm not that comfortable with that fact.
If u can't beat them...join them.. I see myself speaking more mandarin these days. Its not a bad thing... I think its time to brush it up to a next level.

relieve..

the grades popped out today. am glad CF was decently well done. did the same thing today...logged on to the once again familiar website.. shut my eyes almost instantaneously when the page loaded. took a peek.. phew.. 71/100..

"And so....Tell me..... "

Its hilarious how this phrase rings in my head now..

Somehow, somewhat.. i might be really suffering from that disease which WK mentioned...something along the line of talking
to oneself. Anyhw, yea i think i do have tendencies. sheesh.

2 days to another weekend. The week started out in total madness. Absolute madness. 18 hrs of non stop work. I swear its never gonna happen ever. The mind started fresh and clear. Slight fatigue became the next transit. Caffeine dosage takes u to another rollercoaster realm. Finally..the grey matter shuts down. Time to sleep. Hah. 9 hrs of beauty sleep was absolute luxury. I needed that.

Tuesday...hmm def a better day...
still...i dozed off on the way back in the cab. The cab driver took a slightly different route this time round...hmm..the confusion bwt lorong 5 and lorong 6

Another fulfilling weekend..

The downpour on saturday felt like a great deterrence to head out. Nevertheless, i chugged the umbrella and braced the cats and dogs. Holland V had the least bit of rain... felt so silly with the umbrella..and tried so very hard to rid it. Popped by parisilk with tim for a quotation off canon 450D. hmmm 1350..not too bad a price. decided to take a good check on the prices frm funan and all before closing the deal.

Dinner at Taste Paradise resto was quite a nice experience.. recalled the days where the boss would whip out plates of yummy dishes from the kitchen at Defu Lane. Its quite amazing how he managed to grow his business over 3 years.

Didnt expect tat amount of chatter and all.. i enjoyed it... always good to just share points of view.