Alien in a foreign land..

Thought hard on the best possible way to reach Marina Square for the sports club gang dinner.. PIE, CTE, Lavendar Road, Sims Ave..blah. Settled on the the CTE route via balestier. An interesting sight caught me whilst making the lane filter to balestier road. Under an old angsana tree, a dark skinned man stood with palms placed in a "praying" sorta manner. Indeed, he appeared like he was praying to a typical chinese red alter placed under a mysterious tree.

Didn't seem like a local to me..his outfit and all. More like a foreign worker. for a spilt moment after the sight, i felt his alienation in a foreign land. the need to seek faith, help or whatsoever luck from a diety or higher being, away from his homeland. mebbe we all do need that bit of faith somehow from above...

Personal Time...
Finally managed some personal time today after yesterday's paper. think i was sent to the abbatoir. anyhow its over.
Trottled about for ingredients for today's baking spree. Yes i do get into that occasional madness of baking.

Today's bake list - Durian Puffs

Been a while since i tried my hands at choux pastry. Absolutely not the most fun thing when u've gotta whisk real vigorously at the pastry mixture at optimum temperature ~ 90 degrees celsius. Madness. Round one was bad.. temp was too low. The pastry turned out flat. Round 2 and 3 was much better. End result - About 200 lil choux puffs came out of the oven

Feeling stressed and worried today..couldn't get myself to join in the discussion with the rest of gang.
Just praying that all will turn out well on saturday morning.. probably not my favourite subject..still, i'll
have to brace thru the paper.

spent the morning at the clinic getting med check.. don't quite fancy the blood test albeit a previous internship
experience at one of the big MNCs that produce these much hated needles. wanna know hw its done? let me share
with u sometime...its fascinating.. the wonders of science and technology. alright here we go again..science...blah blah.

buddy's kinda stressed up too.. to think we joked abt the matter just 2 days back- speak of the devil. just hope that
everyone tides over this period well.

amies dropped by today to prep up for her exams too. had an interesting discussion with her- can there ever be a perfect
fit? square fits square? a circle fits the square too?

Randomness

That seems to occur quite a fair bit in everyday life. How molecules in fluids move about.. aqueous state, liquid state, gaseous state. Goodness, that took quite some effort- to recall the scientific states of matter. the jargons used to spew at ease in laboratory class.. over lunch and tea with the mates in school. shall try to flip the old books for a refresher course after the exam . miss the good ole days..

mkts somewhat move in randomness as well.. well at least it states in the formula which i'm cracking - N(d1) & N(d2)... ok those of you who are in the same boat as myself should know what i'm referring to.

roots of plants grow randomly no? doubt there's a mechanism that dictates how the roots reach out to tap underground water supply in an orderly manner. hmm hence the complex structure of roots when u lift a balsam plant? mebbe thats evolution?

physics is a fundamental of all sciences..or should it be mathematics? ok this is random..hahah

somehow....somewhere...sometimes...

i miss my curls..the wavy hair....

women! we're all the same. u wanna have the nice straight hair when
your curls are nice and bouncy.. when the curls are up...u die for the flat-ironed
ones....arghhhh...

alrite...let me stick to the current style and ensure it gets nicely treated before
stupid thoughts come along to trash the tresses into hay.

Counting ...and counting..
a few more days and i'll be done with the paper..
can't wait for that to come soon..

next up.. to plan for my retreat..

me: hey could i borrow ur europe 'lonely planet'..
xxx: erm...i think u still have it!!
me: really??? no way...its returned in a big bag..
xxx: i dun think so...i dun have it...
me: okok...let me check..i am sure i dun have it
me: AH HAH! i found it! heheh hiding in my cupboard
xxx: mutter mutter...din i tell u ....argghhhh

sometimes i'm such a dodo...

Life's like this....

Life aint easy..if it was..it'll be boring..

i acknowledged the fact that i have split personalities.. can't figure out if its good or bad.

Need my drugs..dark chocs to tide me thru this week. After saturday and i'll be free!!


Grrr...why do i need to rem the black scholes model.. ???!

Post bkk..
Touched down from bkk at abt 10ish..interestingly, the flight landed at T3. Honestly, was too tired to roam abt the terminal. Just wanted sleep. The 3 days in bkk was tiring. the weather didnt help much either with dry and hot season preping up. Only comfort- exec lvl room at conrad.

One would probably think i'm silly to not have extended my stay for a wkend of shopping. Yes i wasn't keen at all- get the job done and leave the country for home

Half time

First paper's down.. another to go in 2 week's time. Met up with urai, linda, chris, jas and chef baba for high tea at ritz. was urai's bday lil tea time party. perfect time to unwind after a paper.

trotted about orchard with alicia and did our usual girly stuffs- shopping! chanced upon 2 lovely sundresses and a lil pearl trinket..
Spent some time with the folks and mich over coffee. always enjoy such simple sit down chit chat sessions with them

Sunday's kinda wound down. Didn't feel like doing anything much. So no mugging. Went to the museum with james for the last day of Greek exhibits from The Lourve. Totally enjoyed the slow afternoon at museum.

The week ahead's gonna be busy and messy. Pray for me...

Decision made

Finally, the decision has been made. It was difficult. The situation was certainly one of the most unpleasant i've ever encountered. The past month was mind boggling with thoughts of what ifs running all day long.

The ability to predict and forecast what the future holds, gives one comfort and assurance. However, circumstances hardly unfold according to our forecasts. The risk was huge. Almost no historical point of reference. I was uncertain about the decision. The first round made me uneasy. The day dragged by.

Mustered the courage and made the second round of decision. This time, i feel much better- at ease. Ready to embark a new journey of uncertain waters. Probably wouldn't be easy. But i'm certain to make it work out right...very much in my favour.

pitter patter..
and i ran in the rain. contemplated on the run, but the sluggish discomfort was getting to me. the usual running route was exceptionally peaceful today. the light rain in the face felt nice..seemed like sprays off water from the sprinklers in the gardens. the run without joey felt a lil different. the last run was full of chatter, this time round was just me, myself and yvonne. i enjoyed it. recalled how the marina park used to be when 3 of us ran together. 2 years passed and the singapore flyer's up. the grandstand for national parade piled up quickly like lego. fascinating.

indeed the waterfront has developed rapidly. too fast for my liking. the once lush green marina south is now plastered with cranes piling the foundation for the upcoming casino and financial hub. honestly i hate it. yet, somehw, i have to accept it..the country's gdp is bound to leap.

took on a slightly different route back. ran across the bridge that links esplanade to fullerton. i wanted an evening view of the waterfront..on a chilly drizzly evening.

back to the gym. loads of rats like me. i have come to realise that my workout regime sux. haha. now for a more svelte figure.

The last session of classroom teaching is finally over. 2 weeks more to the exams before i get my break. Managed to steal some time after class yesterday for a movie. Caught the local production - The Leap years. Was a lovely production. simple and heartwarming. maybe there is that special "dreamy, bluey" person out there afterall for everyone's pursuit...

queried if history should just be stored or deleted. ans: delete

reply: ok maybe i will

everything's on a clean slate. now.. to work on the new year resolutions. have to get them sorted out once more. re-prioritise. the list has to be more lean. item1 is out.

the wheeze seemed to have subsided. maybe its time to start working out a lil. and i've yet to attain being a pescatarian. arghh

the whatever tendency..
gets more frequent. better not get easier

History..

Great subject indeed. depicts the occurance of events..records details for future reference, gives insights to lessons learnt. allows one to walk back in time, to experience and embrace during earlier times. but does it matter if history was ever preserved?

maybe...maybe not....

strike back..

the once forgotten & dreaded attack is back.. 10 yrs back, the dr said that i might be facing mild symptoms of the wheeze. medication was prescribed..taken and forsaken within a matter of days. the side effects were bad.. the wheeze went away.. and visited almost once a year..almost always a surprise visit. no exception for this time round.. arghh.. the 2nd dr mentioned stress as a cause... medication was an inhalent.. discus look-a-like toy.. purplish cover. "take a puff" when u feel the discomfort. puffed once, twice..and forsaken..

maybe its due to the lack of exercise..am nt too sure. or the incessant thoughts of impending exams. not quite sure.

maybe i do have mild asthma afterall..

The bday week..
Have much to update for the past week..but the burnt wkend totally drained me of all the energy.. the school work is indeed getting to me.. very worried abt the next term with corporate finance & equity lumped together..

yep the bday celebration started off with partying at barfly with the usual gang. it was a nite of absolute fun.. am glad everyone enjoyed that. managed to catch up with ivan on saturday after class.. i was seriously drained.. he could tell that i was dozing off whilst waiting for the pizza and calamari at modestos. sorry abt that pal.. pls pardon me if i lost u at times.. had sleepless nites for the past week. the wkend at class was horrid... tried to keep up and all..but just kept feeling fatigued. feels like i'm falling ill..

popped the panadol today at work as well..dun quite fancy the idea of taking it..guess i just had to to kill the pain. the temples were really constricted. the project mate called a few times to discuss abt our delta hedged portfolio..and consulted capsicum owner abt it. i was charged 10 bux per min.. haha!

Post work drinks at molly's was nice..cosy and relaxed.. quite like the place in fact. much much better than harry's with all the guai-los ard....argghh..

Was kinda tired by the time i hit the subway..semi dozed off whilst commuting.

Sudden pang of depression just hit..not sure why and how.. had to fill the tummy with some food before heading back.
grab a quick bite at the nearby food court..and jostled home...

berry seemed like the best companion.. berried celine..so glad that i could talk to her.. the school work...and planning abt stuffs for future and all just came full blast..

just wish for a quiet evening with the girls tomorrow..

Partie Pics!!
Finally got the comp working..!! phew.. i can finally upload my pics. Those of you who dropped by for our (Amy and I) party at barfly, have a glance at the pics!!






Okie its taking a long time to upload this...go check more on the facebook!

Sigh.... the assignments and exams are hitting me once more...

Partie Partie Partie..~!

Happy Birthday Amy! Had a joint bday celebration with amies at Barfly last evening. One of greatest night out for a long long time. The whole gang was there to grace our special day together.. such a privilege to see so many turn up on a friday night. Apologies to boon yam, urai , chris, jas and those who left early.... i'm guilty for being there later than i should. We will definitely have dinner together soon ya?

the nite started slow with martinis...simple stuff... and of cos with the crowd coming in.... the guys definitely wanted me and amy sloshed. haha! joey and aug suggested shots.....that was it... well it started off rather light.. 18 shots of kamikaze..NO, amy and myself din down the 18 ourselves. HAHAH... one each for everyone...ok..well we had to do 2 in the end. So kamikaze was still safe.... as the night went on..more martinis...and photo snapping. probably the only group that created a hell load of brambles haha! Good Job guys!

Round 2 of shots came along... same stuff.. 2 each... (4 down...and counting)... the 2 sweeties , jemie and geraldine came along.. :) more martinis...

by 11ish....everyone was somewhat tipsy..jason suggested round 3 of shots.. and yea we did it again.. arghh.. 2 each of "blow job" pretty yummy stuff ..kahlua with whip cream.. that was not the end.. the waiter dished out the "waterfall" apparatus...*gulp* that was it....

a nite of good fun and copious amts of alcohol.. thanks guys for making the evening a fun one for me and amy!

glad that the damage to the pockets werent that big...hahahha

Taking art to a different realm??

i need to think about what i like...flowers..butterflies....or some random odd design....

the gf is keen on it as well....hmm nw i'm really toying with the idea..

Binge binge binge...

Ah yes..totally killed the diet plan with the wkend long of cny. doesnt help with the coffee table packed with heaps of sinful cookies...arghh..

the fingers kept crawling to them. wish i could just put them all away. the cny vice...

now to work off the excess calories...pineapple tarts..walnut cookies..kueh lapis..argghh butter ladened!!

i'm gonna hit the gym later.. i still have a "zero room for growth" dress to fit..