14/01/07... been a week since the incident took place. Had a glance of my blog history...realised that it was started sometime in october 2003. About 4 years back.. 07/01/07.. a day that will be deeply embedded in my mind. not sure if i should close this blog..and start a brand new one...to begin a life without you ard. i know i can't bring myself to do so.. the 3 years of wonderful memories are still so vivid in my mind.

the ferry ride to and fro reminded me of you... the shopping session got me excited to look out for apparel that may suit you.. but had to remind myself that it was history. maybe you wouldn't want me to harbour tots of you... i guess its hard..am trying hard to preoccupy my time to let time pass. mebbe u're happier with someone else now? i try to not think about it... the memories of losing you at the mall in hakone and then reuniting again when everyone else has left, keeps running in my head.. i was relieved..felt comforted to be in your arms again. promised then to stay close always..

maybe i do wish for u being ard....seems like impossibility. will we ever be reunited when all the storm and uncertainty is over? i'm not sure.. maybe not at all...its unclear. all fogged..

it was good time spent on the island..everyone was happie and had good bargains... i was happie...had bumpod with me. will learn to be strong and be well..all the best for the exams...study hard and focus well on the paper. i'll pray hard for you and send the lucky stars...