A different sort of fear...
the fear of screwing up a deal and costing lotsa $$.... that was how the week went.. not funny at all.
Saturday, October 24, 2009
Sunday, October 18, 2009
fulfilment..
the week past way too fast. i could barely catch up to clear my thoughts. the trip to the hk office was tiring.. i hate the last flight out schedule. swear i'm not gonna do that nxt time. at least on the return leg.
rush- airport. rush-hotel. rush-office. rush-meeting.rush-dinner.rush-office.rush-lunch.rush-airport.rush...
that was the schedule. perhaps the only comfort was the light brown BV wallet i got for myself. the 2.55 was calling out. shaune and adler think its nice.. very wicked.
fulfilment popped the brain. am i feeling fulfilled? speaking of basic needs.. the hierachy needs some reworking.
perhaps..one day.. i will be ready to move out..and she'll be ready to accept. she needs to learn..and i have to learn as well.
the week past way too fast. i could barely catch up to clear my thoughts. the trip to the hk office was tiring.. i hate the last flight out schedule. swear i'm not gonna do that nxt time. at least on the return leg.
rush- airport. rush-hotel. rush-office. rush-meeting.rush-dinner.rush-office.rush-lunch.rush-airport.rush...
that was the schedule. perhaps the only comfort was the light brown BV wallet i got for myself. the 2.55 was calling out. shaune and adler think its nice.. very wicked.
fulfilment popped the brain. am i feeling fulfilled? speaking of basic needs.. the hierachy needs some reworking.
perhaps..one day.. i will be ready to move out..and she'll be ready to accept. she needs to learn..and i have to learn as well.
Friday, September 04, 2009
3 days to go..
And yet a new environment. Wonder if i'm all numb to the rapid change in environment. perhaps not?
perhaps i like the thrill of rollercoaster rides.
the trip away was good. been a while since i went on something alone.. yet not alone. trudging to lantau was quite
a challenge. the scorching sun, rising humidity did not make the journey all that enjoyable. recalled dozing off
during the bus ride. i'm quite a pig. i like to sleep. heh..
quite a few errands to check off.. photos, admin, and a health check
And yet a new environment. Wonder if i'm all numb to the rapid change in environment. perhaps not?
perhaps i like the thrill of rollercoaster rides.
the trip away was good. been a while since i went on something alone.. yet not alone. trudging to lantau was quite
a challenge. the scorching sun, rising humidity did not make the journey all that enjoyable. recalled dozing off
during the bus ride. i'm quite a pig. i like to sleep. heh..
quite a few errands to check off.. photos, admin, and a health check
Friday, August 28, 2009
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
New beginning beckons..
finally, all cast in stone. am ever so grateful to the opportunity. the process felt surreal.
tedious - nevertheless a bitter sweet symphony. perhaps like what fishball said, i should order
the fav choc cake. hah.
its odd how the neighbour feels odd. somehow, someway, such behaviour seems a little self inflicted.
does not matter to me anyhow. perhaps it was a temporal amusement.
hope that he knows that i bagged it. the frequent chats over jogging perhaps helped. thankies my beloved.
pls be proud of me for i want you to.
pack,shelf,file,delete... the same process once more. seems familiar.
finally, all cast in stone. am ever so grateful to the opportunity. the process felt surreal.
tedious - nevertheless a bitter sweet symphony. perhaps like what fishball said, i should order
the fav choc cake. hah.
its odd how the neighbour feels odd. somehow, someway, such behaviour seems a little self inflicted.
does not matter to me anyhow. perhaps it was a temporal amusement.
hope that he knows that i bagged it. the frequent chats over jogging perhaps helped. thankies my beloved.
pls be proud of me for i want you to.
pack,shelf,file,delete... the same process once more. seems familiar.
Monday, June 22, 2009
Forgotten...Forsaken...?
Haven't made my entry for a long while. Thank goodness its not forgotten. The past month has been busy. Preoccupied with preparations of the trip. Maiden one with Amy. A very memorable one. Thank you dear for the time and willingness to come along.
Things have sorta come to a simple resonance. Perhaps its good for the short term. Definitely not for long. Have become somewhat subdued, quiet and lost in my own realm. Not sure if this is really me. Perhaps.
Fathers' day passed and i bought daddy his favourite fruit cake from Mezza9. He liked it. His special day is coming quite soon.
Haven't made my entry for a long while. Thank goodness its not forgotten. The past month has been busy. Preoccupied with preparations of the trip. Maiden one with Amy. A very memorable one. Thank you dear for the time and willingness to come along.
Things have sorta come to a simple resonance. Perhaps its good for the short term. Definitely not for long. Have become somewhat subdued, quiet and lost in my own realm. Not sure if this is really me. Perhaps.
Fathers' day passed and i bought daddy his favourite fruit cake from Mezza9. He liked it. His special day is coming quite soon.
Monday, April 27, 2009
And Finally....
The day arrived. Donned the harry porter robe once again. The setting is somewhat different this time. I was my own chauffeur to school. My passenger - Mrs Lim Cheong Ling.
" Do i look ok in this outfit? " "Yes you do mum.." She was eager and excited for the occasion and am sure she silently prayed for his presence. It felt like he was out of town.. one of those days.
The campus brought great memories. Painful nights spent rushing projects, assignments and discussions. " Where are you headed to after work today?? " " Back to school" - I'd exclaim. "Oh..poor thing.." Yes, i got that alot, alot and alot.. It was depressing at the initial stages. Subsequently, it was part of my routine. A routine which gave some meaning to time spent. Well at least i'd wish and viewed it upon as time well spent.
Soy milk, fillet-o fish, sugar rolls and sandwiches were the fav dinner staples. Tcc coffee was the default hang-out plc with "the gang". The stroll to campus, the gaze out of windows during breaks felt just like yesterday. Not forgetting the chauffeured rides on sat evenings and sunday mornings+ afternoons by him. I felt i was priority... thank you daddy..
I wished she had company on saturday.. mebbe she did :) ok am sure she did.
On hindsight, the journey felt unreal. Too quick, and as mentioned to a fellow graduand.. i need closure.. some sort of a gradual closure. Perhaps it all started with a dream- a dream filled by realism with time.
Perhaps thats how things should be... dream a little dream...
The day arrived. Donned the harry porter robe once again. The setting is somewhat different this time. I was my own chauffeur to school. My passenger - Mrs Lim Cheong Ling.
" Do i look ok in this outfit? " "Yes you do mum.." She was eager and excited for the occasion and am sure she silently prayed for his presence. It felt like he was out of town.. one of those days.
The campus brought great memories. Painful nights spent rushing projects, assignments and discussions. " Where are you headed to after work today?? " " Back to school" - I'd exclaim. "Oh..poor thing.." Yes, i got that alot, alot and alot.. It was depressing at the initial stages. Subsequently, it was part of my routine. A routine which gave some meaning to time spent. Well at least i'd wish and viewed it upon as time well spent.
Soy milk, fillet-o fish, sugar rolls and sandwiches were the fav dinner staples. Tcc coffee was the default hang-out plc with "the gang". The stroll to campus, the gaze out of windows during breaks felt just like yesterday. Not forgetting the chauffeured rides on sat evenings and sunday mornings+ afternoons by him. I felt i was priority... thank you daddy..
I wished she had company on saturday.. mebbe she did :) ok am sure she did.
On hindsight, the journey felt unreal. Too quick, and as mentioned to a fellow graduand.. i need closure.. some sort of a gradual closure. Perhaps it all started with a dream- a dream filled by realism with time.
Perhaps thats how things should be... dream a little dream...
Monday, April 06, 2009
Good old times..
the clock ticks, the hours past, the days fly.. yet the friendship remains strong. spent the wkend with the crazy bunch of sports club friends. must have been years since we last spent 3 consecutive days together. The trip to Bintan realised after months of planning.
Everyone moved on in their separate ways after uni. Somehow, the trip brought everyone together, and puts a little reminder that we are still who and what we used to be- Lots of spontaneous fun. I love them.. thanks guys for being such a fun bunch of friends.
the clock ticks, the hours past, the days fly.. yet the friendship remains strong. spent the wkend with the crazy bunch of sports club friends. must have been years since we last spent 3 consecutive days together. The trip to Bintan realised after months of planning.
Everyone moved on in their separate ways after uni. Somehow, the trip brought everyone together, and puts a little reminder that we are still who and what we used to be- Lots of spontaneous fun. I love them.. thanks guys for being such a fun bunch of friends.
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
Odd hours... fatigue... and a state of uncertainty...
day 2 of odd hours- not fun. Fatigue, yes indeed. Several errands to run... loads of knots to untangle. The path ahead seems uncertain. then again, such is life. can't get too clear can we? grrr.. what a twist.
looking fwd to clarity once again. nevertheless, the golf swings were fun! each good swing brings such satisfaction.
day 2 of odd hours- not fun. Fatigue, yes indeed. Several errands to run... loads of knots to untangle. The path ahead seems uncertain. then again, such is life. can't get too clear can we? grrr.. what a twist.
looking fwd to clarity once again. nevertheless, the golf swings were fun! each good swing brings such satisfaction.
Sunday, February 15, 2009
Swing swing swing...
2nd golf class. not too bad a lesson. managed some pitching and putting. gotta work on that swing a little more.
weather was a little harsh. 2 consecutive days of sun got me a little burnt.
somehow.. thoughts are just not flowing as much, or as well. Am i losing the capacity to formulate deep thoughts? am not sure.
And yet, the new year resolutions are not concrete.. very very strange......
2nd golf class. not too bad a lesson. managed some pitching and putting. gotta work on that swing a little more.
weather was a little harsh. 2 consecutive days of sun got me a little burnt.
somehow.. thoughts are just not flowing as much, or as well. Am i losing the capacity to formulate deep thoughts? am not sure.
And yet, the new year resolutions are not concrete.. very very strange......
Monday, February 09, 2009
Back to class...
Not for the financial 'goodness' this time. But for the official golf lessons. The range is quite a bit of distance to travel - Laguna in the far east. Nevertheless, the drive up was nice and speedy.
Feedback from first lesson was good. The swing felt right and proper footing and grip were somewhat adopted. Managed to round up the lesson with a nice hit - reasonable distance of abt 70-75m range ?
Alot more to practise.. nxt....to get my hands on the iron.
Not for the financial 'goodness' this time. But for the official golf lessons. The range is quite a bit of distance to travel - Laguna in the far east. Nevertheless, the drive up was nice and speedy.
Feedback from first lesson was good. The swing felt right and proper footing and grip were somewhat adopted. Managed to round up the lesson with a nice hit - reasonable distance of abt 70-75m range ?
Alot more to practise.. nxt....to get my hands on the iron.
Friday, January 23, 2009
Time of the year...
the new year ushers in.. year of the ox. the joyous mood seem dampened this year. perhaps due to the bad economic sentiment. i wish it was just due to that. however, deep down inside, i do realise why things are different. his absence. he used to buzz abt with mum. from florists to groceries shopping. the heart wrenched as i recount the days spent together.
the flood gates somewhat were released on desk today. thank goodness everyone was away.
the new year ushers in.. year of the ox. the joyous mood seem dampened this year. perhaps due to the bad economic sentiment. i wish it was just due to that. however, deep down inside, i do realise why things are different. his absence. he used to buzz abt with mum. from florists to groceries shopping. the heart wrenched as i recount the days spent together.
the flood gates somewhat were released on desk today. thank goodness everyone was away.
Sunday, November 30, 2008
First weekend
of personal time. the absence of buggy assignments and dreary eyes is bliss. somehow am just in the sorta state where planning is out of the picture. saturday was spent well with mum, aunts and uncles. They love the bakery at Prive.
Sunday afternoon at changi was relaxing too.
Next up, the running routine and a new lease of life..
of personal time. the absence of buggy assignments and dreary eyes is bliss. somehow am just in the sorta state where planning is out of the picture. saturday was spent well with mum, aunts and uncles. They love the bakery at Prive.
Sunday afternoon at changi was relaxing too.
Next up, the running routine and a new lease of life..
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
Monday, November 24, 2008
Friday, November 21, 2008
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
Monday, November 10, 2008
Final lap..
1.5 years whizzed past at a glimpse. The entire experience still feels unreal. wonder how things would have been if i didn't take that leap. The leap that twisted the path perpendicularly. No regrets. Time spent with the team was great. Love 'em all.
The final lesson ended a week back. I'll miss the chattering over coffee breaks, snacking in class and a whole bunch of banter at our fav tcc. heh..fancy a grp of adults doing that. i'll miss daddy picking me... and his frequent "Yvonne girl... hw are you..." "Yvonne girl, you're dress is pretty.. " Yes i miss being daddy's little girl.. the pesky girl who planted a scratch or two during her first attempt of driving. the sneaky one who bumped it again on second attempt and stealthily kept mumb.
I just wish that he was around.... to witness that 3rd attempt on stage..
I now know what i'm wishing for.....
1.5 years whizzed past at a glimpse. The entire experience still feels unreal. wonder how things would have been if i didn't take that leap. The leap that twisted the path perpendicularly. No regrets. Time spent with the team was great. Love 'em all.
The final lesson ended a week back. I'll miss the chattering over coffee breaks, snacking in class and a whole bunch of banter at our fav tcc. heh..fancy a grp of adults doing that. i'll miss daddy picking me... and his frequent "Yvonne girl... hw are you..." "Yvonne girl, you're dress is pretty.. " Yes i miss being daddy's little girl.. the pesky girl who planted a scratch or two during her first attempt of driving. the sneaky one who bumped it again on second attempt and stealthily kept mumb.
I just wish that he was around.... to witness that 3rd attempt on stage..
I now know what i'm wishing for.....
Sunday, October 26, 2008
Saturday, October 25, 2008
Brand new change after 3 years...
Finally after such a long time.. decided to execute the plan yesterday right after work to prevent any hold ups by myself or ppl around me. hah
a good 30cm of locks were chopped. the experience was great. there was an initial sense of anxiety.
"something simple, yet chic, yet not oldish..nor outlandish..." must have been a traumatic session for vincent.
the blade got whipped out from his stash of tools, which sliced off millions of keratin fibers. 4 aggressive slashes. that was it. sealed my fate for the next 3-6 months. well,i asked for it. the heart beat surged. the remaining 45minutes were just mere finger-crossing, toe-crossing and silent prayers. May the outcome be decent......
6:55pm. the results spoke. i love it...
i love to go against consensus wishes.... heheh
Finally after such a long time.. decided to execute the plan yesterday right after work to prevent any hold ups by myself or ppl around me. hah
a good 30cm of locks were chopped. the experience was great. there was an initial sense of anxiety.
"something simple, yet chic, yet not oldish..nor outlandish..." must have been a traumatic session for vincent.
the blade got whipped out from his stash of tools, which sliced off millions of keratin fibers. 4 aggressive slashes. that was it. sealed my fate for the next 3-6 months. well,i asked for it. the heart beat surged. the remaining 45minutes were just mere finger-crossing, toe-crossing and silent prayers. May the outcome be decent......
6:55pm. the results spoke. i love it...
i love to go against consensus wishes.... heheh