Sunday, April 25, 2010

Overdue...and finally

The family portrait became a reality. Finally. The elder sis was happy, so was the younger one.
3hrs prior to the actual photoshoot, she buzzed abt the house. "Do i look ok?" "May i borrow your makeup" ...etc etc..
Was quite an interesting sight.

The younger one donned the bright yellow dress, whilst the elder one took on a nice satin pink outfit. They looked really pretty.
The snapping process was quite a hassle. can't imagine hw it'll be like for the actual big day. gulp. nvm..prolly wudn't happen till a few years more down the road.

The outcome made me realise that it was worth it all. A family pic. Priceless.

A moment sealed in history.

Wish he was around..

Sunday, April 18, 2010

Knowing what u want and what u don't

and so i spoke to a mate about that. ok perhaps not one mate but quite a few on that similar topic. a seemingly simple question, yet it creates quite a fair bit of discussion. a fairly valid topic to work on for almost everyone, yet, many a times well-shunned by aplenty.

if only life was that simple? mebbe it is, we just complicate matters.

so u do know what u want? then work towards it and reap the rewards? easier said than done.
consequences, varied outcome possibilities and fear somewhat hinders the action. So they say, take
calculated risks. don't think that works alot. then again, i may be wrong. life cud hv been better or easier
if i took on 'calculated risks' ? nvrtheless, am not regretting the decisions made thus far in life. am thankful
for the very existence.

perhaps one shd just go with the gut feel of things. haha, suicidal decision making method at times. but could possibly reap
some goodness!

Monday, April 05, 2010

post easter blues?

perhaps, especially with a long weekend spent.

thankfully all was calm at desk, except for the occasional buzz
a perfect time for admin work to kick in..
and an occasional chatter

the post work breeze was great,
whiffs of char-grilled meats, fried noodles send grumbles in the tummy

settling for braised duck was certainly comforting, especially
with the company of a very experienced mentor from the mkts.

always a fascination how time and experiences brings humility..
i look forward to that and wish for a whole hearted embrace in time to come..

and so a random person sent me a random msg:

"Yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery
Today is a gift, that's why its called the Present"

how true indeed..

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

pen & paper..

# 2 is done
felt weird, heavy & a cocktail shakeup of emotions.thankfully the A4 sized paper got filled up within 15minutes.
Any longer would hv been disastrous. Shall try # 3 tmr. Might be better.

Sunday, February 21, 2010

Baking treats..

Its about time.. i still owe some of you.

Gotta work on the recipes! Weeeee!
And now....hmmm.....

what to do for the big day....

the idea of a lil graffiti is very tempting....
Another lunar new year

Yes indeed. A brand new one ahead.
the usual buzz took place at home, but with a slight twist of things.
#3 didnt turn up till quite late. I bet its due to the tension created several
months back. in my view, that incident was a complete waste of time.
i hope those involved realised that. MOVE on guys!

The heat came down mercilessly. thankfully the dress came sleeveless.
Mdm was pleased with her outfit. Am glad she does...

poker seemed to be the game of the season. the session at ivan's was
very enjoyable. Shaune came along with his bagful of goodies.. heh

Tuesday, February 09, 2010

to guard your heart...

so says he...

to follow your heart..

so says she...

to take a pick..

so says me...
contentment

an alfresco setting
a simple conversation
kickass dishes
and a light breeze in the face

what else can one ask...

i know..perhaps another round of horfun/chow mien from the wok

i love zichar..

simply decadence...

Monday, February 08, 2010

And i feel very much loved by the people around me

very often we forsake those just right ahead of us
and yet more often, we forget the love and concern showered

i love you all, for those who love me...

my bad if i've forgotten or forsaken you ever..

Sunday, January 31, 2010

Got reminded of this muse spot over dinner yesterday.

Ah yes...i do hv a forsaken blog. Very much guilty of not leaving type-prints on it for such a long time. Perhaps am just running out of thoughts to note. The diary is nicely tucked at a little corner too.

Jan's over...Feb is ard the corner. Wonder if i shd plan up a party nxt month...mm.. been a while..

Lets see...

Someone gave a suggestion of a macdonald's party.. hhehehe.. mebbe i should just do that!

Monday, November 23, 2009

that inner peace..
is it that tough to attain? somehow.. that need triggered today. "You should leave the office by 630pm" so says the boss..
felt weird to step out of my keyboard and monitors fortress, seeing some evening sun. the streets were quite crowded. i'm not used to that.. the subway was packed..i'm not used to that.. stroll to the axs machine for bill payment... eyebrow session.. nt quite used to them, esp for the past 3mths.. am i officially burnt out? perhaps...

the stack of readings threw me a nasty glare.. can't seem to leave them alone. picked up a copy - SG weekly.. flipped thru.. they actually make sense to me. the others stared hard at me once more.. i couldn't be bothered. i needed to write.

to feel better, to be more at ease. have not penned for a long while. the diary looks dusty by the bed side. the last entry looks horrid... unsightly handwriting. somewhat wish that i regain that ability to pen something that looks decent. laziness? perhaps..
or perhaps just another convenient excuse...

perhaps meditation works.. or sitting by the beach sipping mojitos...... u tell me what works..

Sunday, November 15, 2009

Growing up...

my baby sister has grown up. the thought process, the ideas.. somehow see myself in her when i was at that stage of life.. :)

i love you mich...

Saturday, October 24, 2009

A different sort of fear...

the fear of screwing up a deal and costing lotsa $$.... that was how the week went.. not funny at all.

Sunday, October 18, 2009

fulfilment..

the week past way too fast. i could barely catch up to clear my thoughts. the trip to the hk office was tiring.. i hate the last flight out schedule. swear i'm not gonna do that nxt time. at least on the return leg.

rush- airport. rush-hotel. rush-office. rush-meeting.rush-dinner.rush-office.rush-lunch.rush-airport.rush...
that was the schedule. perhaps the only comfort was the light brown BV wallet i got for myself. the 2.55 was calling out. shaune and adler think its nice.. very wicked.

fulfilment popped the brain. am i feeling fulfilled? speaking of basic needs.. the hierachy needs some reworking.

perhaps..one day.. i will be ready to move out..and she'll be ready to accept. she needs to learn..and i have to learn as well.

Friday, September 04, 2009

3 days to go..

And yet a new environment. Wonder if i'm all numb to the rapid change in environment. perhaps not?
perhaps i like the thrill of rollercoaster rides.

the trip away was good. been a while since i went on something alone.. yet not alone. trudging to lantau was quite
a challenge. the scorching sun, rising humidity did not make the journey all that enjoyable. recalled dozing off
during the bus ride. i'm quite a pig. i like to sleep. heh..

quite a few errands to check off.. photos, admin, and a health check

Friday, August 28, 2009

New journey once more...

8 hrs more to HK : )

So glad that its a nice time off before the next mad rush..

looking fwd to the adventure ahead!

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

New beginning beckons..

finally, all cast in stone. am ever so grateful to the opportunity. the process felt surreal.
tedious - nevertheless a bitter sweet symphony. perhaps like what fishball said, i should order
the fav choc cake. hah.

its odd how the neighbour feels odd. somehow, someway, such behaviour seems a little self inflicted.
does not matter to me anyhow. perhaps it was a temporal amusement.

hope that he knows that i bagged it. the frequent chats over jogging perhaps helped. thankies my beloved.
pls be proud of me for i want you to.

pack,shelf,file,delete... the same process once more. seems familiar.

Monday, June 22, 2009

Forgotten...Forsaken...?

Haven't made my entry for a long while. Thank goodness its not forgotten. The past month has been busy. Preoccupied with preparations of the trip. Maiden one with Amy. A very memorable one. Thank you dear for the time and willingness to come along.

Things have sorta come to a simple resonance. Perhaps its good for the short term. Definitely not for long. Have become somewhat subdued, quiet and lost in my own realm. Not sure if this is really me. Perhaps.

Fathers' day passed and i bought daddy his favourite fruit cake from Mezza9. He liked it. His special day is coming quite soon.

Monday, April 27, 2009

And Finally....

The day arrived. Donned the harry porter robe once again. The setting is somewhat different this time. I was my own chauffeur to school. My passenger - Mrs Lim Cheong Ling.

" Do i look ok in this outfit? " "Yes you do mum.." She was eager and excited for the occasion and am sure she silently prayed for his presence. It felt like he was out of town.. one of those days.

The campus brought great memories. Painful nights spent rushing projects, assignments and discussions. " Where are you headed to after work today?? " " Back to school" - I'd exclaim. "Oh..poor thing.." Yes, i got that alot, alot and alot.. It was depressing at the initial stages. Subsequently, it was part of my routine. A routine which gave some meaning to time spent. Well at least i'd wish and viewed it upon as time well spent.

Soy milk, fillet-o fish, sugar rolls and sandwiches were the fav dinner staples. Tcc coffee was the default hang-out plc with "the gang". The stroll to campus, the gaze out of windows during breaks felt just like yesterday. Not forgetting the chauffeured rides on sat evenings and sunday mornings+ afternoons by him. I felt i was priority... thank you daddy..

I wished she had company on saturday.. mebbe she did :) ok am sure she did.

On hindsight, the journey felt unreal. Too quick, and as mentioned to a fellow graduand.. i need closure.. some sort of a gradual closure. Perhaps it all started with a dream- a dream filled by realism with time.

Perhaps thats how things should be... dream a little dream...